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cha0819 wrote:

hmmmm if i were you sis, ganyan din siguro mararamdaman ko., ayoko din sa lahat pinipressure ako, tapos ang kulit kulit pa di ba, unless kung mahal mo xa okay lng din mangulit kahit araw araw pa kaso in your case nman, sobrang kulit nga nyang guy na yan kahit pla sigawan mo eh di pa rin tumigil, may ganon plang klase ng guy. hehehe.

so wat are your plan sis, dinespatcha mo na ba?? hmmm am pangit ng term ko ah, eto na lng, binasted mo n ba xa sis??

actually sis, binasted ko na sya last year pa pero persistent pa rin.  inisip ko baka naman mag-bago isip ko. then i tried the silent and cold treatment.  in a day, he would call mga 10x a day plus text pa run and I wont reply on any of those pero sige pa rin.  he just did one thing that pushed my button and nasigawan ko sya twice.  As in I never gave him a chance to speak over the phone. Feeling bf kase and hindi pa nga and m ind you, nasa barko sya.  After that shouting incident, nag-text na naman 3 weeks ago and I hope that yung final piece ko sa kanya typed ALL CAPS will make him realize that I really despise him.  I told him na wag na syang magpapakita sakin.  Kung pwede lang pa-blotter ko, gagawin ko na.  Ganun sya ka-insensitive, kakulit and desperate.

I must admit, takot ako kase baka wala nang sumunod and I undesrtand him naman where he is coming from.  I'm 35 na pero ayoko rin namang married and miserable.

Thanks sis ha.  At least nakapag-unload ako.

cha0819 wrote:

hmmm okay lang yan sis, its my pleasure nman na makinig sa mga kfam forumer kung ano meron kwento sila! im ot a good adviser but im a good listener! I feel you sis, kasi dati naramdaman ko na yan, when i was 27 feeling ko tumatanda na ko pero wala pa ring direction yung life ko, medyo magulo yung life ko before, super down as in parang hopeless na ko, parang wala ng pag asa na may mgmamahal pa rin sakin despite of who i am tlga! di ko alam kung san mag uumpisa nuon, and i prayed to God na hellp me to go through this life kasi di ko alam kung san patungo, so unti unti ko inayos life wen i was 28, naging forumer ako dito last year, umattend ako ng Kcon last year din, meeting new friends, and the good thing is, malapit sila kay Lord... i was lucky na nkilala ko sila and they help me to move forward., until before the year end, nakilala ko yung OTL ko dito sa forum! at the age of 29 may bf na ulit ako hoping na xa na tlga yung tao na mkakasama ko habang buhay! (hmmm pinagpray ko tlga to) heheheh. and god answered my prayers naman! so sis keep on praying and have faith on Him that He has a better plan for you. Huugggsss you sis! update update na lng dito ha

sometimes i want to give up na talaga and take matters in my own hands again. feeling ko mid-life crisis na to. hehe. salamat ulet

rhy wrote:

lostgabie wrote:

rhy wrote:

seaman???

yes sis. back then a part of me thinks that I still feel for my ex that's why i was holding back for seaman.  but it's been a year already since we first met and i have never learned to love him.  I tried but I failed.  I gave all the chance that I can give but I just felt more bad about myself.  He is pushing all the wrong buttons.  He could be an easy escape for me to change status and not fear of growing old alone.  But just the thought of him is giving me nightmares.

Time is not on my side.  I am 35.   I am still alone and I fear growing old alone.  I hope I can finish this race strong

just discern sis...if you need spiritual adviser, get one...

are you attending any feast lately???

if not, i'm encouraging you to attend one.

if yes, you can also volunteer for the intercessory ministry...
you will have a lot of time to talk to the Lord via this ministry...

i am praying for you now so that you will receive your much needed discernment.

and btw, im a bro po

ay, bro ka pala. hehe. salamat bro. and yes, i've been attending feast regularly starting August this year.  sumbungan ko ang feast eh para di ako bumitaw sa katinuan. hehe. thanks again!

rhy wrote:

lostgabie wrote:

rhy wrote:

just discern sis...if you need spiritual adviser, get one...

are you attending any feast lately???

if not, i'm encouraging you to attend one.

if yes, you can also volunteer for the intercessory ministry...
you will have a lot of time to talk to the Lord via this ministry...

i am praying for you now so that you will receive your much needed discernment.

and btw, im a bro po

ay, bro ka pala. hehe. salamat bro. and yes, i've been attending feast regularly starting August this year.  sumbungan ko ang feast eh para di ako bumitaw sa katinuan. hehe. thanks again!

tama...wag u bumitaw...sang feast ka sis actively attending??? same month pala tayo nagsimula this year

i attend in makati bro, every thursday. kaw?  update lang, just now, biglang nag-chat sa ym sakin now e nilagay ko na yun block list ko. bigla na naman akong nakaramdam ng takot bro   feeling ko harassment nato.

Last edited by lostgabie (2011-11-23 06:15:13)

rhy wrote:

lostgabie wrote:

i attend in makati bro, every thursday. kaw?  update lang, just now, biglang nag-chat sa ym sakin now e nilagay ko na yun block list ko. bigla na naman akong nakaramdam ng takot bro   feeling ko harassment nato.

im attending feast manila during fridays and feast picc during sundays...
try mo na din magserve dun sa feast makati and i encourage you to join a CG there as well...

mas mafe-feel mo yung belongingness thru CG...
dami ko ng testimony na narining at isa din ako sa nakaramdam nito...

your sharing will be a blessing to others...
and their sharing will also blessed you...

HANG ON there sis...GOD is always in control...

I have CG na din last October lang.  anger management na to. thanks bro.

reina wrote:

nakakarelate naman ako dito hehehe

my ex bf is also a seaman, (ex kc i give him a chance, pero like you nga hindi ko din sya nagawa mahalin).. super kulit din nya, as in..
pero kung makulit sya mas makulit at matigas ang ulo ko sa kanya..

hindi nya kaya kamalditahan ko hahaha

i even told him my bf na akong iba kahit nong kami pa just to push him away ( kahit wala) hehehe... effective naman kunti pero pag nakikita nya mga status ko sa fb bigla un mag msg at sisingit at sisingit.. lagi nya sinasabi "ayaw mo kc sakin" hahaha

eventually nasanay na ako sa mga hirit nya..

aun lang nakakarelate lang ako

hahaha. kulet nila no? palibhasa panay cargo lang ang nakikita. hahaha. tabi tabi lang po sa ibang mga seaman dyan. hindi naman siguro lahat. hehe.